Ugly Side

I'm not my best today

And I'd be lying if I said it's probably a phase

I was born with a case

Of imperfections and a whole lot of mental disarray

I need to know why I'm Jekyll and Hyde

I wanna know what is up with me

I need to know why

I have these ugly sides

I get despicable for sure

I'd rather not have it show

Does that make me unlovable?

I feel it creeping up on me when I'm not watching

Uninvited, always there in my subconscious

There are parts of me I ghost

I suppress them for the most

If I could make them all go quiet, that'd be something

Keep calm and carry on

Wise words to live by, but I'm likely doing it all wrong

I can shine like the sun

But if I don't get it my way, next thing you know, the storm is on

I need to know why I'm boiling inside

I am the worst of me sometimes

I need to know why

I have these ugly sides

I get despicable for sure

I'd rather not have it show

I can be cute and loveable

I feel it creeping up on me when I'm not watching

Uninvited, always there in my subconscious

There are parts of me I ghost

I suppress them for the most

If I could make them all go quiet, that'd be something

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Awesome

Awesome

Um, I don't know, I think I

I think I allow myself to be rude and mean

To the people I love the most and

The people I love the most are the ones who get the worst of me

And I don't like that, why is it like that?

I don't know

I'm dropping a new podcast soon so you can hear the rest of it